/ Friday, June 08, 2012
Finally to update abit..
Well.. Encounter some prob in my marriage and it is nt doing well.. Like some ppl say, too early marry also nt good.. will have alot of prob.. But end up i still marry to my husband cuz i thought i will be v v happy to bulid a lil family with him.. But in less than 2yrs, our marriage had alot of probs.. Went through alot with him. I finally realised how difficult it is to maintain a marriage. Have been thinking alot whether to give up or to continue this marriage.. Finally i decided to be alone for a period of time to really think what i want. True, when i leave him, my heart was super painful. But i know i have to make a decision sooner or later.. Whenever i thought of him, my heart just sank. Tears cant stop flowing but i have to be strong. I need to make a decision in order nt to hurt anymore ppl. I failed as a wife, a mommy. I didnt know i can be so weak when comes to handling r/s probs.. I always choose to avoid it.. But nw i cant be so selfish. If this marriage cannot hold on alr, we both need to let go. Maybe the other party will find a more suitable one. But whoever it is, i hope when the day when we both separated, i hope tat girl will help me to continue to love him, take care of him. If this happens, is when we both are prepared to let go of each other. Yes, there will be hurts. But memories will forever be in our heart.
