/ Friday, July 17, 2009
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These few days have been contacting randy.. he said alot of things that made me touched. he asked me to accept him but i didnt. i felt so bad. on the other hand, i was also disappointed that me and him (not randy) didnt contact very long le. guess our relationship is over. he have his own life and didnt have time for me. he told me that he cant devote most his time on me. i understand that. he got alot of things to handle and doesnt have time for relationship. the first 2 months i was so happy. i felt that i was the happiest girl on earth cuz everytime when i go hospital for appointment, he would accompany me and stay by my side, and i have hilda, audrey, ruyou, chewling and darren to encourage me.. but everything just gone in a moment of time. i was so lost. dont know what to do. the worse thing is next week is my birthday, i dont even know if i'm allowed to go of this stupid place. (not my house)
i hate this place! i hate supplements!! it makes me feel like puking everytime after drinking it. STUPID RESOURCE 2.0! i want to spend my birthday outside with my friends and family. =(
i know this year my birthday will be a pathetic one. guess i dont even have more than 5 ppl wishing me, actually, i dont want to make it until my birthday is a big thing, all i want is just to spend my birthday with my close friends and family. seriously i miss my parents. i've not seen them for weeks already. though me and my mum have some misunderstanding, but afterall she's my mum, i still love her. i dont know how to say to her that how much i love her but only can keep it in my heart. and, i love my dad too. i guess i wont be able to hang until now if my parents are not here. i love my family alot. i love my friends and i miss subway! ok, random.
anyway, i just want to get out here and meet my friends and stay together with my family having meals together.. =( =( =(
