/ Monday, June 15, 2009
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Time for blogging. just finished eating my red bean bun and fruit juice. Last week went out with hilda and gui liang. was quite fun going out with them. they just made me laugh and make me forget the unhappiness i had in school. Hilda and i meet up first and we went to mac while waiting for gui liang to reach. and then, some nonsense topic came out of nowhere. thanks ar darling. pollute my mind! haha. then never mind, she still go tell gui liang our conversation make me damn pai seh! my god! then they both were laughing at me =( haha. yea, then reached city hall le, we super high.. went to suntec first for the IT fair. after that we went to marina square to play the kiap kiap machine. hilda know i'm not feeling very good so she told gui liang to go play with us together. yea. i caught a hamster for hilda darling! the one that hilda like! so happy! ^^ (after spending quite alot) haha. never mind, at least it cheers me up. after that gui liang have to go off to meet his friends, then me and hilda headed off to have dinner. SUBWAY! yay! i love subway! we talked alot during dinner and know each other problems we're facing. just love hilda so much! she always make me happy! of course ruyou dearie also! thank you!
Mum and sisters went genting on sunday. but sadly i cant go cuz of the outing for class at sentosa. actually wanted to go bond with them but come to think of it, i go there also sure alone de, so decided not to go. though disappointed but better than going there and feel left out. left me and my dad at home but my dad have to work so i'm at home alone. Most of the times i was thinking abt the unhappiness things. was crying non stop for the past few hours until the box of tissue almost finished. looking at the photos that i took with my family and friends last time, i cried again. i so wanted that old jocelyn back again. but when can i get it back? my smile, my laughter, my freedom, my old self. i know it takes alot of courages and supports to get the old jocelyn back, but can i do it? does anyone willing to give me support and accompany me throughout this painful journey? i doubt so cuz i know everyone has limit. cant stay with me for long. guess i must work doubly hard myself then.
