/ Friday, June 19, 2009
Having holidays now! so happy! but one bad thing is i dont know what to do at home without school, guess will be hanging out with hilda more often.. =)
These few days feeling very depressed. have been thinking alot of things.. one major thing is my family. I feel that my sisters are very affected by my illness. i'm really scared that they'll one day end up like me. i dont want that to happen. I dont want them to have to have the same illness as me, one reason is cuz its not fun at all and its tough, another reason is my parents cant take it.. PLEASE DONT AFFECTED BY MY ILLNESS!!!
I tried to run away from home so that my sisters wont get affected but i will let my parents worry again, i really dont know what to do. i'm confused. haix. i'm a burden to everyone..
Anyway, very long never meet darling hilda le.. hopefully can find one day to meet up with her and have fun with her.. i miss her so much! i think in this world only she knows my problems, but too bad, she cant solve it too. i only can cry infront of her and tell her my problems, but i still have to solve it myself.. ah!!! i'm tired! i dont want to face anymore problems! my family problem is enough for me to worry.. GOD!! SAVE ME!! i'm super scared and worried abt my family!! =(
