Myself ♥ Jocelyn Hang Jie Shi ♥ 26th July 1990 Yichelle's Mummy (:

Hubby ♥ Daniel Ng Junrong ♥ 12th July 1989 Yichelle's Daddy ^.^

Our Precious ♥ Yichelle Ng Ying Xuan ♥ Arrived on 2nd April 2011 (:

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sorry for not posting for the past few days..
anyway, today something happened in school. i dont know why it became like this too. i treasure every friendship, but looks like this friendship is going to fall apart. why? why? why everything happen in just a short while? i cant handle. i need someone badly to listen to my sorrows.. i really do. i know these few days i cant control my mood. i dont know why too. i dont want it to happen. i seems to lost everything. maybe ruyou is right. only the sick ones like me really understand what we're going through. others? i understand they dont have the patience to torlerate my illness and my uncontrollable mood. i miss the days where i got no friendship problems. i want that feeling so badly. can anyone turn back the time for me? if possible, i dont even want to be born to this world. i only bring misery to others.

I've lost my feeling. i dont know what is sad or happy anymore. if anyone ask me whether i'm happy or feeling sad, i only can say : i dont know. i cant feel anything. i'm numb. i dont know how to shed anymore tears, laughing freely. yes, i may seems happy in school, but deep down i'm desperately crying for help. i dont want to make my classmates feel that i'm always depressed. this would only make things worse. i've tried my best to smile in school, but it doesnt seems to help. i feel so left out. it really hurts me when they talk amoung themselves and didnt talk to me. when i'm in hospital, they bond with each other. now even i want to click into the group also hard cuz i'm always not there. seriously i want to click in with them but i just couldnt. i dont know what to say cuz i scared i say the wrong thing.
Last week ruyou ask me whether i still want to continue with school or take a break since i cannot handle, i was confused. part of me want to study, part of me just want to avoid everything. school used to be a motivation for me to get well, but now, it no longer does. i'm just a person who is inconsiderate, hurt ppl, bring troubles to others. i really want to disappear once and for all. all these while, i've been receieving hurts again and again. even the closest one to me. now i got phobia of trusting others. i dont know who i should trust. hilda mag me last week: you used to be cheerful, happy, nothing to hide, but has become of you? my sister also msg me: what happened to my last time jie jie? she have changed completely to another person. now i reply to the both of you: i dont know. i want to be happy everyday like how others are, but i cant do it. i dont want to drag the rest of my classmates mood down so i just control. i miss the first few days of school where we laughed together and joke together..

JOCELYN HAS DIED.