/ Monday, June 22, 2009
Alright, time to blog..
Ytd went out with hilda darling to walk around. waited for her at whitesands to go tampines together. no where to go so decided to go tampines cuz its nearer. had mac after that walk around. at first had alot of fun with her but halfway through, something very saddening thing happened. only hilda knows. i felt so hurt by the sms. Hilda, though i didnt say anything, but inside, the pain is unbearable. i dont know what else to say. i understand what you meant by getting hurt especially when it comes to the people you most rely on and believe in. I dont want to lose him but i can understand his problems. Maybe i shouldnt started it in the first place. now i have to face this hurt of losing someone soon. One by one is leaving me. i cant stand the hurt again and again. guess i should just go alone and only contact a few ppl who never gave up on me- Hilda, Audrey, Ruyou and Darren. Is not that i dont want to contact any of my friends but i'm scared of losing them one by one. Ruyou dearie, i'm not that strong jocelyn you know for the past few months anymore. i cant act strong infront of you anymore in order to motivate you cuz i know i'm lying to myself and you. I'm sorry. but i promise you, i will hang on as long as i can alright? same goes for hilda, dont worry, whenever you need someone, i'll always be by your side to listen to your problems. Love you =)
