/ Tuesday, April 07, 2009
Today going SGH for appointment again.. Ruyou today last min got something on we decided to meet tmr instead. she going to accompany me to buy things for school.. yea, speaking of school, i'm super scared now.. dont know whether can adapt ornot. i mean, i've stopped school for one year plus le, suddenly go back school very weird. dont know how to face the stress and the ppl. that time when i went back school to register, i felt super weird. although i really want to go back school, but i guess i'm really not ready yet.. I AM SCARED!! when i go back to school, its all new ppl i'm meeting! my goodness! plus, most of the ppl there very good at making friends. but me? i'm so scared i got no friends. i'm scared of the feeling being alone. i'm not as active as i used to be. monday is coming soon! dont know whether its a good thing or a bad thing for me. Hopefully everything goes well for me..
ytd i got a dream. i dreamt abt hilda. i dreamt that when i was alone outside, she shouted my name and both of us run to hug each other.. i miss that hug we used to have. but because of one SELFISH GUY, make our friendship turn sour! i seriously hate him! dare to say but dont dare to admit, but telling other ppl another story! SHIT LA!! all because of you, i lose a darling! i became so isolated after that incident! i dont want to make new friends anymore! ppl cant be trusted! All the sweet memories i had was gone! GONE! you know how i feel ornot! anyway, since it already happened, then let it be ba.. i dont want to rake up the past again. i'm feeling sad again.. =(
haix.. enough of that, wanna say a big sorry to my family if my illness acts up again.. i really dont want that to happen.. i will try to control alright?
