/ Thursday, April 30, 2009
Hey hey! Sorry for not posting for a long time..
Yea! school started few weeks ago. was quite fun but at the same time, stressed. made new friends. Her name is Tracy. she was my first friend made in school. She's quite nice =) she love music too.. haha. Then followed by few other friends.. Ming Zhen, Sylvia, Stefanie and Ai ru.. we only smile at each other when we see each other cuz they are one clique. yup, so i only go with tracy and she go with me.. then the next day, there's a new girl, her name is called Hui ling. she's quite friendly. we made friends and now we go for lunch together.. School was quite stressed and tired. have to wake up so early.. not used to it.. haha. cuz have not been going to school for a year le.. must really try to adapt. =(
Anyway, i'm in the same school with my dearie Ruyou. we both went school on the first day. and we often meet up in school. whenever one of us down, we will go find each other.. both of us struggling very hard in school cuz of our illness.. but dearie, hang on alright?
ytd went for appointment. was not a good one. Doctor wants to admit me but there's no bed.. i dont want to get admitted! i havent got back my test results and i dont want to stop school cuz i've made new friends!! but she said once there's bed available, she'll ask me to get admitted.. but, I WONT GO BACK TO HOSPITAL! i want my freedom outside and not as a patient. dearie, sorry if this upset you, but trust me, i will take good care of myself even when i'm not in hospital.. now just got to pray that my parents wont force me to get admitted. After that, got to take blood test.. i was scared of injections, but dearie stood beside me and hug me when the nurse poked the needle into my hand. then, at night, swollen.. hopefully the blood test is positive.. these few days been really down.. super depressed. i really wished that dearie is with me 24hrs.. she's the only one that can cheer me up.. when i'm at my lowest point these few days, she's the only one that encourage me. without her, i guess i'm not here typing this entry already.. dearie, i know you're struggling as hard as me, but i hope you will hang on. Dont give up alright? i love you very much!!! i dont want to lose you.. if one day either you or me end up in hospital, we must not give up fighting alright? cuz this means that we really need help.. i will always be beside you to hold you.. love you!
To hilda and audrey: i miss you girls alot.. though we seldom meet up, but i'll still put you both in my heart. you both will never be forgotten. LOVE YOU! =)
