/ Thursday, February 26, 2009
Today went for appointment again.. Its the same old thing.. haix.. listen for one year le.. dont know when then i can be free from SGH.
After appointment went to find audrey dear, we went to vivo. at first wanted to go the open space eat (cuz i wasnt in a good mood so i decided to eat at somewhere quiet), but it rained. so we eat in a corner, audrey and me laughed alot like usual. ^^
Next, we went walk around vivo for awhile then we went to Bugis. I went to bugis buy bread =) oh, btw, i cant have dinner with audrey cuz my mum want me to be back for dinner. so audrey went to meet her another friend after i leave.. yup, when i was alone, i suddenly felt so down.. really upset abt one matter. only hilda Aiai knows. she called me and talked to me.. i know i cant do anything abt this, but i didnt expect things to turn out like that. You keep saying that i dont understand you, but the problem is you dont understand me too. we only spent few months together, we dont know much thing abt each other, but as time pass, i'm sure we can get closer and understand each other more. but i guess everything is over for us. I'm scared of facing this problem. i got enough problems already, no strength to handle this problem anymore. I'm tired. i am. there's my own personal problem, i didnt tell anyone, family problem, and now the problem with you. i dont think i can handle this anymore. its up to you now. whatever i want to say i have said already, if you have no confident in me, then i dont know what to do anymore. Love? what is love? i dont know. i only know i love hilda, audrey, darren, louetta, ruyou and chewling. they're the one that always there for me. They understand exactly how i feel. I really need them in my life. nobody contact me after my illness. i felt so alone. I dont know why i still existed in this world? I've lost everything! =(
Hilda Aiai, Audrey Dear, Darren Kor Kor, Louetta jie jie, ruyou jie jie, chewling jie jie, I LOVE AND TREASURE YOU ALL!!!
