/ Sunday, November 18, 2007
hihi.. here to blog again..
Haix.. so many things happened recently.. especially my family problems.. i really dunno what to do la.. these few days, i didnt eat cuz i want to save money for my family to enjoy a good meal.. it's been a long time since they had good food.. i just to save up to treat them.. is that wrong? how come i kena scolding? they say if i continue like this, they going to bring me to hospital for a drip.. cuz i didnt eat the whole day for a few days le.. ok, drip never mind, they somemore say if i die of hunger, they wont even bother.. they say i deserve it.. that hurts me alot la. i understand they dont want me to starve.. but i got no other choice le.. now my dad is in the room isolating himself.. dont want talk to us.. my mum didnt talk at all.. its like because of money can become like this. what happen to my noisy and lively family? i really hope my family can get back to the times we had together.. now got family ma kiam like no family.. plus.. exams coming le.. want to go home study also cannot.. my sisters keep on fighting.. i feel so useless in my family.. as the eldest in the family, i cant even do anything.. yea.. i did pray, but nothing change.. instead, it became worse.. i'm seriously useless. completely useless.. after school, still need to help my dad to do delivery, reach home still must do housework.. nowadays class test all fail.. now my parents totally changed.. i'm very scared if this continue, my family will split.. we seldom talk to each other le.. once start talking, we quarrel.. =(
now i just hope that problems will stop coming.. i cannot handle le..
My greatest wish:
1) My parents will be back to normal
2) My sisters wont quarrel
3) My family to be like before
4) I can get alot of money to help my family
5) My family to smile everyday
6) My friends will get stronger in God each day
That's all i hope for..
