/ Thursday, August 23, 2007
As usual, went school with audrey. on the way, terence called and say that alex cannot be contact. i was so scared that something has happened to him. but lucky in the end he is contactable. we met him at small mac there and we waited for matthew to come, then we go school together. and yes. we're late for lessons again. ha. its normal. =P then went for POA lessons. need to do what quotation and letter head. me, puay ling and audrey choing for the project cuz we always the late ones. haha. yea, finally our quotation is done after i think printed 3 times of mistakes. thanks to me.. haha. after that, BREAK! our favorite time in the timetable. lol.. after one hour of eating le, went back to class for MDP.. now learn the photoshop thing is quite fun.. time passed quite fast. Met hilda after school to settle somethings. and i love her so much.. when she knew that i got problems, she's the ONLY one that really cared for me. of course there's still my classmates like terence, alex, yong ming, gerald and puay ling. i knew you all cared. but you dont know what i really want. Even now i also dont know what i want. i dont even know where am i. It seems like i've already losted everything. yes, i have overcome all problems i had last time. but i feel that this time the problem is really hard to fight.. really hard. whatever i do, it seems like a wrong step. last time whenever i go wrong, there's someone to guide me back.. but this time the more i fight, the more steps i go wrongly.. i even losted Him. plus alot of thing happened recently. i feel like ending my life.
