/ Friday, February 16, 2007
This few days dunno why super no mood.. its like my school life on Janurary and Feburary is TOTALLY different.. i know its new year la.. but this year is like so tiring for me.. havent 2months and these kind of things happen in school le.. haix.. everyday going to school is like a torture to me.. but no choice.. have to drag myself to school.. i really hate it! Go school also no mood, go church also feel down.. oh gosh! wat happen to me?!! i really cant take it anymore! but i dont feel like sharing with anybody which i dunno why.. i have been a very bad friend to everybody.. everything even right or wrong in the end will still be my fault.. i cant find love at home, i cant feel love in school, and now, even church.. i'm sorry guys, but i need time to calm down and be alone.. one by one things come and disappoint me, come and pull me down, and even take away my smile and laughter.. I cant feel God's love and pressence.. just hope that time would pass faster and let me get out of this darkness..
Audrey, i'm sorry i cant help you much anymore.. i know sometimes you're angry with me for not staying strong.. but.. i have to admit that you're really stronger than me.. my situation is not as simple as you think it is.. but i didnt blame you.. dont keep saying sorry to me cuz that's wat i should do as your church mate, CG mate or rather close friend.. time cant go back. although me and them de friendship is tearing apart, but i'm happy that i have once shared a happy memories with them.. just wanna say that, keep on staying strong like wat you're doing now.. dont let anything affect you.. cuz you're still loved by God and everybody in church.. stay happy everyday.. i love you too!
